May 2, 2009

I have thought a lot about my life recently. I want my life to be varied, to be colorful. However, it's not meant that I should play all the time. Waht I desire is doing something I really want and knowing different kinds of people.

Learn English and Japanese well, play volleyball well, have a good boyfriend...

There're so many "well" and it indicates how great my desire is and how secular I am. However, I think those are good for me and those enrich my life and make me happy . Then, it's worthwhile even if someone think I'm secular and superficial.

Sometimes I'm thoughtless. I admit it. I don't like complicated matters and I'm tired to know that. However, I should learn to think more enen though it's not easy easy to me. I'm trying.

"To be, to do, to have." : )

April 28, 2009

Superficiality, it's a terrible word telling you how you are ignorant and fragile.

After realizing the truth, I was a little scared. I don't want to be a bimbo or someone like that. However, it cannot be changed within a short ime. What I can do is broadening my horizons and I think that it's my first step to see far above the world.

Someaday, I'll be the phoenix.

April 19, 2009

Recently, Jennifer saw an activity about the international volunteers of Nepal and she asked me whether I wanted to join that with her. Originally, I thought a lot about it because it would cost much money. However, my curiosity about Nepal overcame my hesitation. Ultimately, I decided to take a chance. If I pass the interview of the activity, I'll join it.

I have never been to such a special country like Nepal so I desired to experience different kind of life and to explore somewhere. It'll be fresh and interesting. The most important of all, I can help the poor, the aged or sick peopel. Just like Jennifer said, self-worth appears while helping others. I do not say that helping others is a grand behavior or something. What I mean is that I know I have the power to help others and I'm willing to do that. Why not?

Sometimes people living for others are happier. : )

I dare not say I'll certainly get something from the trip.

However, if I get a present, it would be...

" Know myself more! " : )

April 11, 2009

I saw a film named " The Love of Siam" with Jennifer and Carro at school. The story is mainly about two boys, Mew and Tong. They were neighbors when they were children. However, after the disappearance of Hong, who is Tong's sister, his parents decided to move out the sad place. Consequently, Mew and Tong could not see each other any more.

When Mew grows up, he becomes a vocalist of the band named August. Even if he creates many charming and touchy songs, he still feels that he lacks for something. Till that day, he met Tong in the square of Siam and he actually knew what he lacked for and who he wanted to sing for.

I'm very impressed by the love between Mew and Tong. When Mew sang a song named "同行", I could actually feel the deep love of Mew to Tong. At that moment, their love is so touching and I was really happy for them.

Love is sweet. :)

At last, Tong told Mew " I can't be your boyforiend but it doesn't mean I don't love you."

Mew was sad but he still said inwardly. " Thank you."

Love is bitter. :(

Jennifer asked me that whether homosexual love should be blessed.

" Sure! Why?" I replied.

Love is no boundaries even if they are two boys.

　

April 7, 2009

" I'm bored. My life is boring." Rocio told me.
" Why? Why do you feel like that? "
" Every day is the same and nothing special. How have you led such a dreary life for almost two years? I can't endure that!"

I think in a while.

" Maybe my life is relaxing so I don't feel boring." I say hesitatingly. A weird reply, I know.

In fact, it's hard to me to answer the question. After entering college, I don't feel bored about my life. Although I didn't really work hard on my studies like some of my classmates, I didn't play around frequently and even I didn't do something special, I still feel that college life is interesting. I mean that I just do normal things and nothign special almots eveyday life, but I don't have that feeling like her. Even though I'm not completely content with my life now, I still don't feel my life is boring. Actually, I try to make it better. Try to make my life more meaningful and more interesting.

"Anything but ordinary." say I inwardly.

I hope that she can find her way soon. :)

March 29, 2009

I had dinner with Emily, Molly and Freya today . We talked a lot , such as our studies, our love and our life. Above all, we talkd about what kind of boys we like are and what we will want to do in the future. Freya said that her boyfriend should be versatile and romantic. Therefore, she'll make boyfriend after going abroad because she thinks that Western boys are ideal ones. However, the boys I like are different from hers. I hope that my boyfriend should be like a child. I mean that his disposition should be childlike and natural because I think that it's cute. Furthermore, Many people asked me that why I didn't make a boyfriend. I think that maybe it's not easy to me to like a boy. I don't know why... Maybe Just because I didn't meet the one... I'll keep waiting for you. :)

On the other hand, Molly siad that she'll study abroad after graduatign from college. Therefore, she'll be a graduate in America. I admire her courage and her capability of English so I tell myself that as long as I work hard, I still have the chance to do that.

Just work hard! :)

March 21, 2009

We have vooleyball games in Taipei today. The game is hold for the volleyball teams of department of English and 24 universities join the game. Before the first gane started, we practiced playing volleyball and we put our bag where all of our money and cell phones were in the volleyball field. Unfortunately, when we wanted to take the bag, we fould that it disappeared. We were nervous and we walked around the fild to search the bag. howeven, it was in vain. It was stolen. In the ginning, we were upset and we didn't know what to do next. At that time, it was time for the game. Therefore, we decided to forget that damn thing temporarily.

" We have nothing to lose." our team leader said.

Finally, we won two games and we were in the quarterfinal. We were happy at that time and we almost really forgot the bad thing. Before the third game started, all of us thought that we have nothing to lose and just did our best because we didn't want to have any pity. Ultimately, we lost the game, but we're not sad. instead, we enjoed the game and considered we did well. Because of the game, the relationship among us was closer and I learned a lot from it.

March 21,2009 is really a special day. :)